I've set my date for 4 and a half months from now (a few months before I turn 28 years old) I'm finishing some of my responsibilities and I'm sort of going into a flashback mode, remembering the people, the good moments, etc. The letter to my mother is focusing on that. I want her to look on the bright side and remember the 28 good years we had together. I was fortunate enough to have a happy childhood, from around 14 forward that things started getting tough. From my early 20's to today it became hell, though. Nothing happens in my life, personally, professionally, I'm stuck with irreversible unemployment, zero opportunities and loneliness. I believe in what the Tibetans say that you must die in peace, so my chosen method and preparations reflect that. I think that it's important to do it very consciously and peacefully, not by momentary impulses. So I'm savoring every moment and enjoying the wonders of the world before my time comes. This will probably be my last post here, so I wish the best to all of you. The world is cruel, but never ceases to be beautiful and mysterious. Peace to all.