HI I'm new to this forum and I've never done anything like this before so I'm not sure how it works. I'm a 33 almost 34 year old mother of four stay at home mom, I've been married for 16 years and suffer from deep depression and and severe anxiety. I've been going to psychiatrists for almost 2 years and still have not found the right meds to work for me. Its become intolerable to go on and I don't think I care to any longer. I have 1 child with diabetes and 1 that is autistic with a mood disorder also. The mood disorder comes from my genes and I am told is going to turn into depression or possibly bipolar down the road. I don't think I can bare to see her turn into what I have become. I guess I am writing hoping that reading this I will think of my children and change my mind. At this point it seems hopeless and I can't find a reason to hang on any longer. I have begun to wish that God would just take me as I am scarred of how I will end things and of my children finding me. If anyone has any thoughts or suggestions please anything would help at this point.