im so depressed, i feel like i have nothing to look forward to. I'm enlisted in the marines and i want to get out so bad, i've only been in for 7 months,but i can't deal with it anymore. I want to just leave, but i know it is a crime and the police will be looking for me. and i definitively don't want to go to jail. Enlisting is the biggest mistake in my life, i feel like im going insane. Nobody here understands me. We are supposed to be all rough and tough and feel no emotions, but i'm just not like that. All this time i thought it would get better as time went on, but i only feel worse as each day goes by. I'm to the point where i know i have to end it, but i dont know how or when. I wanted to do it last night, but i just couln't. please help me i feel like no matter what i do, my life is going to be miserable.