I uh...im a little panicked right now, so i apologize if this seems confusing. Uh...i havent been here in years. but i used to use this site every day to keep myself going...just one more day. Ive been raped, abused, lots of not fun shit. then i moved in with my Mom again...and her husband turned out to be a pedofile who raped me every day and beat the fuck outta me, tried to shove me in a furnace once...idk im sorry if this is ranting...but isnt all of that enough?! I went through 17 years of hell, of wanting nothing more then to die...and then...they took my baby. My son, my little Jesse. I was 5 and a half months pregnant...and i went into labor and he died. and...i dunno what to do. this was a year ago, i have no one to talk to, i cant talk to my husband. someone please...just...someone else who has lost a child. i cant breathe, i need help, i need someone to talk to...just...god...please.