Why can't there just be a quick and painless way to do it.. Why can't everyone I know just forget me so I know I'm not hurting anyone.. Why do I always feel this way and never seem to escape it.. I don't know what brought it this time, but I truly and honestly do want to end it all. I'm sitting here searching the internet for the perfect way, on the brink of tears because I know I'm not going to last much longer. I've got nothing to lose anymore. In fact, I eagerly look forward to what's waiting for me afterwards. I don't even know why I'm writing this.. maybe I want comfort in what might be my last few days here, or maybe I just want to know I wasn't always invisible. Whatever my reason, I hope I'm able to finally go through with it this time..