It's been 2 months since the last time i left my home which i can't even call a home, i'm so broke i don't even have a place to live in. And of top of that i'm not good looking enough, it's very hard to live not being a 9 or a 10 on a 1-10 scale. Why did i have to be born? Being poor and not perfect looking, i can't stand it. And after years of living in misery i have developed a shitty personality too, i can't stand myself. I want to press a button and disappear.It's not so easy, why is life so unfair? Not even granting you a painless and instantaneus death? I could stand being poor...but i can't stand not having perfect looks.How can you stand it? A perfect looking guy/girl can have everything in life, it makes me want to cry. To make things worse, to improve your looks you need plastic surgery,to get plastic surgery you need money. And how the fuck someone is supposed to have money? Lucky those guys having a normal-rich family.I was born from a pig and a dog, fuck my dad even left me with my mother alone.And she couldn't find a way to make money. Wasn't abortion a better option? It's so painful, i had to write something.