looks like another lonely night..

with no one to talk to, no one to support me, and no one to even care.

oh joy..

more suffering alone

 

hi daniel
were here for support we care
dya want to talk about things
whats wrong ?

 

everything is wrong.. the world sucks.

i don't even know what i'm doing on here- ugg i'm so messed up

 

your right the world sux big time

but that does not mean your messed up its the world right ?

 

i'm just as messed up as the world- 24 years of fighting, and i don't want to do it anymore

 

why should i suffer longer than i have to.

 

the world is changing everyday maybe it will become better thats my hope now
theres nothing worse than the feeling of lonliness so i can understand you not wanting to go on
24 years of fighting ok lets say you live to 100 thats one quater of your life fighting so far right dont you want to see if the next 3/4 of your life will be any better
you dont need family to make life worth living you need to find what would make you happy ?
so ok apart from death what would make you happier right now?

 

no, i don't want to see what the next few years hold- i've made up my mind

it's enough!. there's only so much you can take of feeling like crap and to be honest, i past the limit now

hmm.. what would make me happy right now?. death obviously, that's estabblished.. but i don't know, being able to talk with you all and try and help each other- but i have obligations- i can't be here as much as i'd want to!

i know i don't need family to survive, quit any bisness with them ages ago

and..

just for the record, i'm so glad i found this site. people i can talk to going through the same thing really does help

 

im glad you found this site too it helps more than we realise
familys trigger us often but sf is a good release for us
i also know what its like to be cut off from family mine are in every aspect of my life even though thats not what i want
if you dont mind me asking what are your obligations ?

 

oh, stuff like eating, sorting stuff out, phone calls, that kind of thing

 

ahh eating finding something that we look forwardtoo eating right the lack of taste boring food yeah?
the damn phone calls they only phone us when they want something right yeah i need a lift i need a favour ?yeah how about thinking about us for a change right ? we put on this mask that were fine but they cant see underneath right? they dont want to see ?i think they can see but cant acknowledge how we feel ?
maybe theyve never dealt with depression before and dont know how to
many people use it as a word rather than unhappy but there is a differance they just need to see it?

 

what happened?

are you okay...?

 

yes im fine thank you
thanks to sf im growing everyday and i hope you will too