Today has had me going suicidal to no end. Being the fucking idiot I am, I opened the door to an intruder not knowing who he was. Immediately he stepped one foot inside of my door to block it, which legally granted him entry into my house. Me being the fucking idiot I am, listened to what he had to say. Then when the lorry pulled up me being the fucking idiot I am realised who this intruder was, I simply panicked and forced the motherfucker out of my house, with GREAT FORCE. It was the debt collector coming to take some of our shit due to my mother's missed parking fine, and now he's going to press assault charges on me. I know right, 2 assault charges at the age of 18? How much do you have to fail to get that despite also having severe SA? On top of that (more motivation to DO IT!!!:faint, all of my mother's debt is my fault too because me being the fucking idiot I am, demand far too much effort from her due to my own failures (trust me, when I say MY OWN FAILURES I mean it) she putting £2000+ towards my university. I'm better off dead, the money, time and oxygen spent on me can be put into better use. I will try to pay as much money back to everyone who helped me through, especially my mother. Living with SA coupled with mistake after mistake after mistake, I'm not even worth spending my own fucking time on. Just wanted to make fun of myself and archive this somewhere. Rant over.