For the past four years I have been in school trying to earn my degree, and with one week to go I am not even sure I am going to pass a couple of my classes, let alone graduate. I try and try, but I always seem to fail miserably. I am trying to be optimistic but if I don't pass I see no reason as to why I should be alive. At this point there is little I can do actively to make sure I pass and will have to wait until my grades come out. But up to now everything hasn’t been terrible for me academically and so I am pretty sure something is going to be fucked up in this area of my life as well. Emotionally and physically I haven't felt this bad in a long time and if I fail in this I really don't have another move I could make nor could I do anything to hold myself together. I feel like I am coming apart, since I started cutting again and I just feel like shit every waking moment. I am trying to hold on but I feel as if I am going insane and there is nothing I can do about it.