They want me to go to a DBT group that doesnt get out til 8pm after working all day in a stressful job. If I dont go, I loose my service providers and doctor. WHich means I have to go back to taking <edit moderator total eclipse method> a a night to stop my physical pain. And maybe not wake up. Or , I will go to the f-ing group and I will close my eyes as I am driving home at night in the dark and drive off a steep cliff. I hope they think the group was worth me attneding then. In hte meantime, I will contine to give away my belongings during this next week I have off.