Because I used to get beat up every single day when I was young which developed shyness and I can't find the courage to start a conversation with people today I mostly get left out anyways,my life is boring I have nothing to do but do homework and jackoff,loneliness,and everyone hurting me emotionally by using verbally abusing words,my mom doesn't take me seriously she slaps my ass and tries to sexually harass me I hate it I never even been hug by a girl and shes doing this omg I say stop to her but she doesn't stop and she said no i dont have to and then i say i'll call the police and shes all like i don't care,my fucken parents don't care i think because they don't support me emotionally,and the friends i have right now always ditch me when going to an event makes me feel unwanted and unbelonging anywhere.