Until last year, I had been a long term investor, holding stock in one company that I had held for years. I finally lost faith in that company and sold all the stock last year, and began trying to trade the volatile market. I have now lost around 75% of my life savings. I look back at that stock that I used to own, and it was actually up last year while everything else was down. I lost faith in the company at the wrong time, as they have finally turned the corner, and the stock is going up without me. If only I had never sold that, I would be profitable. But instead I'm trying to trade and losing significant money. I bought another stock 2 days ago, and panicked and sold it yesterday. If only I held it until today, then I would have made 50%. But instead I keep losing money. I am so sad and angry. Most of my money I earned from the last 10 years is gone. I am trying to make it back, but it seems impossible. There are trading forums out there, and I know that there are successful people who can trade, but I can't seem to do it. Seems like if I take one step forward, then I'll take 2 steps back. On bad days like today I do have suicidal thoughts. I want to hurt myself, like rip some skin off or break my fingers in half.