I've had a relatively good life - good family, good job, good friends. I HAD a fantastic, amazing, beautiful girlfriend who I had no right being with, and I took her for granted. We shared an amazing connection. We had 5 wonderful years together, I treated her like gold and always looked out for her, but still always thought I can do better. I started getting anxiety 6 months ago, and was too focused on my own feelings and my own problems, and I neglected her and our relationship. She broke up with me because she thought I didn't love her anymore, didn't want to marry her, and that I was going to leave her. A guy from her work took her in and they've been living / sleeping with each other ever since. Nothing I do is helping in making her realize how much I love her and want to spend my life with her. She is distancing further and further away. I've realized that I will never get someone as good as her, as kind hearted, as loving, and as beautiful. I'm 31, not good with dating and am shy and I don't have the energy to try to find someone again and to go through it all again. I don't think I'll ever be able to find someone who is as well connected with me, who has all my same interests as she does. I'm losing hope, and I don't know how much longer I can hang on.