I just ended a very emotionally and physically abusive relationship, literally. It was last week. My ex took every cent I had and left me in Mexico. I am having a sever bipolar episode that's going back and forth between mania and depression - the depression is severe. I hve been suicidal for about 3 years now and my first attempt was 3 years ago - my symptoms are just very, very out of control right now. I really do not want to contact my family because I have been round and round with this guy so many times that it's just old for everyone. I did finally write my story of abuse, but I can't seem to find find anywhere to post it where it will actually be visiible and it contains profanity so, mos places won't post it. I understand that, I dot. But, how are you supposed to express extreme anger and be proper about it? Thsi guy put me and all of my loved ones through the wringer - badly, and it just doesn't seem right to tone down the rage - I didn't when I told him. It gives the wrong impression - victims of abuse who actually get the chance to speak without fear are rare - and I don't want to waste that. He really can't do anything else to me and he's waiting on me to follow on me to actually commit suicide so he can get everything else. I'm a little lost as to what to do here so any advice, on any part of this would be greatly appreciated. If I broke a rule, I'm sorry, I tried not too.