Everyone's against me. Or that's what it feels like. I know that if I asked them they would all say 'no'. But my head tells me that they would be lying. I don't like feeling like this at all. It hurts. I don't know how to combat this. I can't ask them because they would say no but think I'm needy or weird and my mind will tell me that they're lying. If I don't ask my 'friends' if they are against me then it'll drive me mad thinking about it. The people who I'd normally talk to about this I can't because they are the people. I don't want to be like this. This weekend was meant to be fun but now I'm too nervous to want to see any of them. This is going to be too hard to deal with.