I feel terribly alone. Wife and i separated again 2 months ago. I cant see my kids because they are all showing corona symptoms. Talked to my three year old today son who just wants me home. Its nice to be able to call and video chat but you can't hold them through a phone. Lack of any kind of physical connection with anyone is killing me. Lately the thought keeps popping up that there is only one way to end all this pain and isolation. I really try to fight it but somewhere from a dark corner in my brain comes a voice telling me that I've broken my life so badly it can't be fixed and maybe its time to give up