Hello everyone... It has been a while since I have posted on here, and that is due to a variety of reasons that I just can't keep inside myself anymore. To start things off lightly, I have been having to work every single day for the past week and a half...and will still be working this schedule until told otherwise. For those who don't already know, I work 14-16 hour shifts, depending on the day. Aside from that, my roommate just got killed yesterday. He was a jerk...and treated me poorly...but his death hit me harder that I thought it would. It makes me feel like I will be next...no matter what. The most disgraceful thing of them all is the fact that I have been experiencing extreme depression the last few days. It may be because of the aforementioned symptoms, but I feel more worthless and alone than ever. I don't know what to do, and I feel like the world will be better off without me. A small part of my consciousness knows that I am delusional, but the majority of my brain is telling me otherwise. I am losing a battle with myself that I wish would just end in a ceasefire. Can somebody please help...?