I can see your point about going 2 a councellor, but as I said earlier, I know exactly what they would say 2 me. In relation 2 speaking with family or others, I spoke to 2 close friends, 1 male, 1 female & they are only people who know how upset I am. The female was in a relationship with her ex partner for 8 years & claims 2 have gone through a similar situation. The male friend I spoke 2 is actually Gay, but went through a similar situation with an ex partner off his also, but both their advice 2 me was 2 forget about her & move on, which I can't do & don't want 2 do. If anything, it's that idea that upsets me more than way that she treats me. She can make me feel so low at times, by saying comments 2 me in front off others, including her family, that make me appear 2 be an egit or a fool. Most off time, I try 2 ignore this & don't let it get 2 me. I just stay quiet & take her comments in & let them out other ear. However, 1 time I was a little drunk & I told another woman way that she was treating me & she did not take 2 kindly 2 this. She accussed me off "reading" her. Ill admitt I was wrong in speaking 2 someone else about my problems with her, but I didn't say anything bad about her or call her any bad names. All I spoke about is how she can treat me this way? After this she was very angry & twice since then has threatened not 2 speak 2 me anymore over smallest off things. This really hurts me when she tells me that she never wants 2 see me anymore. Ive tried my best 2 do what any decent man would do. I buy her nice gifts, drive her places, talk 2 her, never get angry or in bad mood with her. I even sent in a request 2 a local radio station saying how sorry I was over talking about her & how much I care about & think off her. I do my best & Im all out off ideas as 2 how I can do anything more that would be nice. I worry all time now that someday she'll cut ties with me & I won't be able 2 cope. She has threathened 5 times since I got 2 know her that she would & 1 time I was working nights on my own & felt so upset & depressed that I tried something unspeakable off. That was 1 off worst weeks off my life. Ive never been more upset. I spoke 2 Samarthians & everything. Ive had bad times since then, again only last week, but I don't want 2 have 2 go through this again. I can't see what Ive done wrong 2 upset her. As I mentioned above I always do what she asks & have done some very nice things. Maybe Im just an un-loveable person & world might be better off without someone as useless as me.