I feel like I'm losing the will to fight. Losing what little energy I had left. I'm re-gaining some of the weight I had lost and I just don't feel like getting up or going out much anymore. It's not fair. For the past nine months I've had to really fecking fight to get better and now just like that it's creeping back up on me. I feel disgusting and ugly, and feel like everywhere I go, everything I do that everyone is looking down on me all the time. I feel like a zoo creature...just here to give everyone something freaky to stare at. Everytime I see myself in a reflection I just think: "Kill it with fire!!"