i'm new to this forum so i guess i should say hi and tell you about why i'm here... i'm always so stressed out. i put everything i have into my art for school. i spend every waking moment in the studio slaving away only to be told i can do better and i'm never good enough, leaving me feeling worthless. i put all of my time and effort into something that is getting me nowhere and i've stopped putting time and effort into friendships and relationships. the closest friendships i have are my friends in the studio. thats all it is, studio friends. i don't accept invitations to go out, i don't have dinner with them after class and i don't go to parties. i spend my time in the studio and when i'm not there i go home so i can be alone. recently i've realized how isolated i've become. the friends that i used to be so close with can barely even be called acquaintances at this point. the most contact i have with the majority of the people i'm actually still in contact with is through facebook. how sad and pathetic. it seems that lately i've become so disconnected that friends i've had for over 5 years don't respond to even facebook messages. i guess thats not the most personal way to reach out but its all i can muster at this point. it took months to realize how deep i'd gotten and that the dark thoughts i've been having aren't normal or sane. i try to pull myself out by reaching out to people but it almost feels like i'm too far gone. i don't know what to do. i live by myself and i used to revel in my alone time. now its all i seem to have. i've never been so lonely in my entire life. i don't even know how to relate to people anymore. this is the most i've reached out in months and i don't even know if i should expect a response. if you've read all of this, thank you for that.. if you have advice on how to bring myself back to people that would be great too.