I know this feeling,Im feeling. This is how I felt just before my last breakdown. Im freaking out coz Im fighting the thoughts but I dont know how long I'll be able to cope for I have work tomorrow, my family are going away for 4 weeks tomorrow, theres more but I cant think..I cant focus on any one thing for more than a few seconds. I need a hug..what am I going to do for 4 weeks with no one?! I want to fix this without disrupting my everyday life too much, I have to go to work, I have no friends..Im meant to be moving across the country in 6 weeks and its something I really want to do! What should I do? I keep thinking about hanging myself in the forest..because I cant cope on my own. Im on meds already. I cant really do therapy coz I cant take time off from work. I know I sound like a fucking idiot but what do I do?