My mother and father claim to love me; however, I feel like I'm only a burden. I suffer from debilitating neuromuscular pain; as a result, I'm unable to work full-time and support myself. Since I'm also unable to do the things I once enjoyed, I'm always depressed and sometime rather unpleasant to be around. In addition, I suffer from severe social anxiety disorder. I see myself as a worthless, useless, depressing, weak piece of shit. Honestly, I think ending my life would make my parents lives less depressing. I know that the mothers and fathers of happy, successful, healthy, hard-working sons mourn the loss of a son. I also know that most mothers and fathers will miss any son, no matter how pathetic and worthless, initially.......... However, do you-all think the mothers and fathers of losers, like me, genuinely mourn their sons long-term? I do NOT want to end my life if it could cause my parents long-term unhappiness.