Hi, I'm new here. I'm Brittany. I don't know what to say without breaking the rules or causing someone else's triggers, but I'm here because I'm seriously considering ending my life. The only thing stopping me right now is my beloved cat who is very attached to me and I know she'd miss me if something ever happened to me. My family no longer speaks to me. The friends I used to have disappeared because my emotional distress was too much for them to deal with. On top of that, I recently broke up with my boyfriend who flat out told me he loves video games more than he ever loved me. I'm still in the same apartment as him and can't afford to move out right now, and there's nowhere for me to go. I have no support system anymore, and my health coverage makes it nearly impossible to get the help I probably need. All I know is waking up each day is harder than the last. I feel so disconnected from the world around me. Everything feels surreal, like I'm not really here. I have no emotional ups and downs anymore; no anger, sadness, or happiness. I see no way out from this hell except death. If I didn't have my cat, I think I'd definitely be gone already. I just want someone to talk to, someone who can understand and not run away scared. I've been abandoned by people all my life, and I never really did anything to deserve it. So when I think about what happens after I pass away, I doubt anyone would notice right away or even care. I can't see the light at the end of the tunnel anymore.