Recently thoughts of suicide have flooded my head. I really don't know if I should keep living. The people inside my head tell me to and want me dead, along with everyone else. I'm at the peak of my depressive episode and I need help. I'm a threat to myself and others. I have kitchen knives and I don't know if I can keep on living. Every day is a struggle with paranoia, anxiety and sadness flooding me. Tomorrow I have a therapist appointment. If I tell him how severe my suicide risk is, will I go to the ER or mental hospital? I don't want to go, I need to. If I don't get help soon I'll end up dead. Advice?