My partner of nearly 20 years, quite rightly, is really mad at me. Things seem to be heading for a break-up and I don;t know what to do. Physically I could cope; mentally I am a mess. I have been looking most of the day at suicide information on the Web. I called a volunteer hot-line, but do not feel better. I am thinking of going to an emergency center as I am not sure what I can do. I guess I need someone to talk to. This problem is my doing and I feel helpless and with zero self-esteem. Can anybody help?