my fiancee is a crackhead and spent 3 months of our rent on it. i just found this out a week ago. i have been trying to help her get better but i have failed she left last night to get a pack of smokes at the corner gas station and has been gone for 16 hours now. i wrote a suicide note last night. i am alone here. i have noone to talk to. im too embarrased to call my parents for emotional help. they went through this with my dad 10 years ago. i now know how my mom felt. i need help badly. before i do something stupid that will hurt more than just me.