Well I failed. I tried real hard to be the person there for this one person I cared so much about, but the person just didn't want me. It has happened so many countless times that I have been rejected in so many different situations and reasons I just can't even begin to describe. I don't know what people want anymore. I tried to be a great friend to people, but people just don't want that. What the f? I totally believed I'm cursed now. I have no way else of describing it. I wanted to prove this idea wrong, but now it's 100% true. I'm damned in all the ways possible. Somebody, somewhere must hate me so much that they have a voodoo doll of me strung up with all the needles in the right places. Whatever I do I walk into a HELL. Whenever I try to be a good person, it turns so bad on me that it puts me right back to where I started. What have I done so incredibly wrong to deserve this!!??? You can't believe how hard it is for to me to fight off this depression!!! To not be the person I don't want to be!!! This lonely, angry, sad, person. That's not me!! It's not what I would wish on people! Yet it always comes back to get me!! i don't understand it! The day is approaching quickly where I gonna end my life once in for all. This is no joke. I have searched endlessly for an outlet, for a positive light, but it always returns me back to the negative. And now I just assume that's where I'll always end up so why fight that. Just let it consume me and I'll soon disappear without any care to this stupid, pathetic life of mine.