Hi jdc72011,
I don’t know how old you are, etc, but you must know that losing jobs is just part of our life experiences. I remember the first time when I lost my job, I felt like part of me was badly injured. Later on I realized that it was my ego that was badly injured. Fortunately my integrity remained. I even quit my jobs a few times after that first time losing job experience.
Anyway, our occupation cannot define us. We are not our jobs or any experiences. Who or what we are always remains as is no matter what happens in our life situations. We are all the same in essence, including your former employers, who are no more or no less than you or me…
It’s understandable that you are feeling the way you are feeling, but you know that you have the strength to go through this…
Do what you can do now. You will be more empowered when you can accept what has happened and face the reality now…
Wish you well!