Im sorry I havent been here for a few days and when I do visit its to complain, rant, and ask for advice. As you may know Im having a really hard time right now. I have the local cps office up my bum and I cant tell them the truth because Im afraid they will take my son and blame for it all. You see my husbands a bit mean to my son. Once he jerked him and smacked him into a wall. Another time he hit his head off a window. Today he hit him and knocked him to the ground. I finally felt I had enough and asked him to leave. Hes been hanging around outside my door and in my driveway. I have asked him to leave again and he has done so, been gone a hour now or so. I hope he stays gone but I know he will be back in the morning (or middle of the night tonight) begging to come inside. Im a bit afraid of him. If he can hit a 3 year old boy what can he do to a 22 year old woman? My son is with my Dad tonight and I dont know where my husband is.. Im up now chatting with this guy I met online (whom I really like a lot) and I dont know what to do. I want to leave my husband behind for good but Im afraid and dont think Im strong enough.. I just wanted to post and get it all out. I dont need to hear how hes an abuser or has classic traits of one so please dont tell me. I dont know what I need to hear. Just needed to get it out.