It hasn't even been a day since he said he wanted to stop and he already wants drugs again. I tried to talk him out of it, but I can't make the choice to not use for him. Thus, I'm totally powerless. I sick of losing battles. I just want to lose the war and get it over with. But "things aren't that bad", he claims. When one says that they want to stop and then they totally disregard it a day later and this process happens every single day...things aren't just bad, they're fucking terrible. I have the chance to kill myself if I do it along with him. I wish something or someone would just grant me the power to go through with it already.