My best friend committed suicide in september. We are both guys so it feels so gay writing this as we are straight, anyway since he did it I have really been strickened with grief. It has really affected my relationships with others (as I am usually very depressed), and I just can't seem to concentrate on my studies. The reason for being in grief is simple, we were such close mates that we knew each other inside out, there were things we told one another about ourselves that I haven't even told to my family, he was like a brother to me in that respect and now that he has gone I feel as though I have lost a component of myself. Very often I have been trying to mask this by being extremely confident, but underneath it I am so incredibly depressed. And there are times I snap, or reach breaking point where I have in effect lost friendships as a result of this. My studies are not going very well due to a lack of concentration and motivation for them. I have felt like quitting, but due to the current economical climate it is not a viable option. I have seen a therapist to deal with this, but it has not solved the route of the problem, rather it gives me a short term high. At times I have felt suicidal since - its been really unbearable! His family members I have increasingly felt reluctant to talk too, I mean I don't want to inflict my grief onto them so haven't. What is the best way to grow from the grief process?