I have lost my children to the local authority and 3 out of my 4 are in care. Two are placed in one placement my daughter is another. My eldest is with his dad. They want to adopt my daughter and want my youngest son to be considered for adoption too. My other son has special needs and no one wants him, has been to two foster placements already and they are now considering some sort of home. I WANT THEM. They are taking me to court to try and stop all contact with them while the proceedings are on going. They say they have an attachment disorder, yet they can not see that is removing them and shoving them in different homes that has caused it. I have had enough I am not sure how long I can continue to fight this. I just want to die. It hurts too much to go on.