I'm so lost. Shattered, in the literal sense, feel in so many pieces, I can't even find them all, let alone put them back together. I'm tired. I'm tired of everything being a battle. I'm tired of the thoughts and the panic that attack me continuously...am I bad? Did I do wrong? Should I be here? Did this or that happen? I'm tired of crying. I'm tired of shaking all the time. There are ways out, I don't look forward to them but they're do-able. I don't want to hurt my family. I don't want it to end this way but I can't stand it. So, I'm posting, not because I expect anyone to save me but because I'm at a loss of what to do. Not even under my name because I'm too much of a wuss to log in.