I have been depressed for many years now but only recently have I been considering suicide. My reasons for being depressed are medical and I may no longer have any chance of recovery from them. When I was about 21 my face got really red and my skin would peel. I went to the doctor and was perscribed a steriod cream to get rid of what they thought was seborrheic dermatitis. I tried to get rid of it for years using this cream and at first it worked a little but then it started to get worse and eventually got so bad i stopped going out (became a recluse). It turned out I had rosacea and steriod cream is really bad for this long term and it progresses symptoms. I soon learnt that rosacea symptoms could be treated with a type of laser called "IPL." To cut a long story short I had this treatment and I now have worse symptoms than ever before. I also have hypo pigmentation (skin without pigment that never tans) and large red burn marks on my face because of the laser treatment. In the past I have had skin problems from pimples to rosacea but the feeling that your skin will never get better (burns and hypo pigmentation) is just too much for me. Even with rosacea (which is a progressive disease that can't be cured) there was some hope i could improve the symptoms with treatment. I have now hit rock bottom and i just don't know what to do. The hope that things might get better has been the only thing that has got me through depression in the past and now that is gone. I don't know what I'm looking for posting this on the forum but i thought telling people how i feel might help. Anything is worth a try but even if i can feel better now I know it will only last until i see what was once my face in the mirror. However I know people have lived through worse, i just need to find the strength but it's hard.