I truly don't know how much more I can take in my life. every day it seems to be getting worse and i can't deal with it anymore. I dwell on my mistakes and the stupid choices I made that lead me to where I am. I've lost a lot and my future seems so hopeles and I'm caught in the woulda coulda shoulda and its tearing me apart and I do not know how to cope any more. i wake up with a pit in my stomach every day and I constantly dwell on yesteryear and I beat myself up for being weak when I should of been strong, and being irresponsible when I should of been. I'm so lost in life and I feel like such a failure and I am at the point where just ending it all is the only way to rid myself of the every day torture I live inside my head. All i had to do is all I think of and I can't let go of what I need to let go of.