Okay, perhaps an update is possible. (From my first thread 'Lost liberties') Mainly because im on the verge of insanity. Recently I have been able to cope with the fact that I am going to have to wait for things to change since I am under the age of 18. This doesn't bother me as much as it use to. But... Even though I have gained much patience and acceptance of my present and always issues, I have had another thing come arise from beneath the rubbish of my tragedies... It seems I am fucked. Why? Well, I had surgery a year ago, I started having problems a while ago, but never really went for inspection cause I know what's wrong...the pain only intensifies.. I had My G.B removed. Out of all of the people who get there's removed, 60% will live problem free. ... ..... ... 40% will live with symptoms for the rest of their lives. Headaches, vomiting, nasea, camping, abdominal pain, bloating, exhaustion, difficult concentration, insomnia, constipation, etc.... The symptoms could range from critical to severe, all experienced on a daily basis until you arrive on your death bed... I'm part of that 40%. My cases are Severe. I suffer everyday and it doesn't seem to lighten. My diet is incredibly healthy, I exercise. My symptoms do not decrease. It is out of my hands. I only blame myself. What do I do? ......... It doesnt seem fair?... It's one of those things. "You don't know what you got until its gone...and you can never get it back... AND IT WILL FUCK WITH YOU FOR THE REST OF YOUR FUCKING PATHETIC LIFE!" ... I fucked up. I'm screwed. How am I suppose to want to live? When I finally accepted my situation, something with such a large severity comes up and slaps me in the face and bites me in the ass, rapes me, kills my sanity, and gives me migranes. I seriously have had a headache non-stop for three weeks. I cannot focus. I'm no longer alive. I'm a walking scum bag of suffrage. How could any one come up with a valid responce. I do not believe in hope. I only think that things should be done for things to get better. ..and there's nothing I can do. I'm stuck.