ive lost my way, ive lost all hope, ive lost my faith, ive lost friends. i have no one, family i have but they are happy, im not. i spend my days at home with the blinds closed and the doors locked, trying so hard to get myself sorted out. i dont eat i dont wash, pathetic really but thats me. therapy was supposed to help but all its done is set me so far back i cant see a way out anymore, well there is one. looks like i have no option anymore. i hadnt cut in so long but its back with a vengeance and the attempts too, i pulled myself out before but this is different...i feel different, scared but strangely calm about my decision.