Hi all.. I just signed up here today, hoping to find someone to relate to. One of my close friends comited one month ago, none of us saw it coming. It has been a difficult time since then for me, I don't know how to deal with it. Everything I do reminds me of him or anything we did together with friends. I don't feel that other friends understand what I'm going through, and I keep up ending in an argue with them. It feels like I'm pushing away some friends because of this, but I can't help it. I can't sleep very well, so my dad prescribed me sleeping pills. I really hope they work because I feel like a zombie atm. I just don't know how to figure this all out and to go on with my life. So I hope to find someone who knows how I feel,... It's just getting too much to handle right know.