Back in March I lost my purpose to life. I had a job that I loved and I took care of people. Some people didn’t like me because of my job, but I did such a good job using my heart to take care of people that the ones that knew me liked me for what I did for them. I found out some other co-workers were not doing the right thing and was doing bad stuff. When they found out I knew they came up with a plan and made up a story. The story caused me to be let go from my job. No one would believe me now what bad I found out was going on at work. That’s why they made up to story to get rig of me. They are just getting away with it and I cann’t do anything about it. My crediabliity went down in town because their made up story was believed by almost everyone around here. I miss what I used to do because I had a purpose. The purpose was to help others the best that I could and protect them from harm. But I cann’t help them anymore so what’s the point of getting up everyday. Every night I go to sleep and dream that I’m still doing the job and helping others. When I wake up my heart hurts because I won’t ever be able to be there for anyone ever again. I have tried and can not get another job. I defiantly won’t be able to get a job that I love anymore. I don’t have anything else in life. I have a few friends, but they are all too busy right now because they are married and have no time. They say I’m such a great guy and I’m good taking care of their kids and I would be a great dad someday, but I know that will never happen because no one will even like me enough like that to be anything more than a simple friend. I wish they would have just killed me instead of just making up a story so I wouldn’t be believed if I told what I knew was going on. It would have been easier. When the savings account runs out I’m not sure what I’m going to do. I already feel empty and useless so I don’t know how much longer I’m going to be around. If I can’t take care of people anymore than I have nothing. I might as well not wake up anymore. I guess I needed to get this out. I don’t know what to do.