I am thinking that dying might not be such a bad idea. So heres why. I am a worthless peice of shit. Im going through a divorce/custody battle, I cant seem to find a job, and now I have my next door neighbors making FALSE accusations against me. saying that there is prostitution going on at my house and that they see several cars parking at my house at all hours of the night. It is so not true at all. I dont even have enough self esteem to do something like that, hell I dont even want to go outside to get the mail because I dont want anyone to see me. I dont understand why these people are saying stuff like that. i just moved here in september, I keep to myself, I dont talk to anyone, one of my neighbors even asked if i was a hermit. Well yes I am because I cant trust anyone! I cant win for shit, I mind my own business, people fuck with me, I get involved people fuck with me...I feel so damn alone. I cant seek help from a doctor because if I do my daughter who I have custody of right now will get taken because they will see me as an unfit mom. So here I am just sitting here letting these thoughts rot my brain. I am a failure at everythin, even suicide, ive attempted numerous times and I still fucken survived. I didnt even tell anyone I was going to do so...I just suck at trying to kill myself. I suck at living and I suck at dying...so now what?????