My heads is filled with running thoughts. Going through my head so fast that i can't catch up but at the same time i feel empty. An emptyness that i've never felt before. The other night a lot of shit kicked off. I hurt a few people i deeply care about. Someone i deeply care about ended up in hospital. I felt like i should of stopped it. I never used you and never would. My heads so fucked. Blaaaaah. I lost everyone around me. I started looking up methods. I've been thinking about one in particulare. While looking it up i found this peace. Something i've never felt before. I wasn't afrain. I've come to terms with what will hapen and im happy with that. I've lost all hope. I've lost all motivation. I'm just lost. I'm sorry to *, * and *.