I must say... what I still hate most in my life, is the moment when egg cell and sperm molted into each other and created a girl.That is me. Well there are so many things I hate in my life, but I just cannot cope with being a girl. As long as I can remeber, I wanted to be a boy. Most people would say that this is not a problem at all. My parents even think its an illusion. I am no teenager anymore, and its not just a mood. There are moments in my life where I wanted to commit suicide because of this. I still keep on thinking, whether or not I should do it. To change my gender...I guess it would not work out very well. There so many psychological things going on in my brain, that would make it impossible. But living an existance in a body you hate...I stand in the middle and belong to nowhere.