I never did this before and I’m usually not a big fan of talking about my problems as i experienced when I was younger that nobody would listen or care for me anyways.
Last year I found out that somebody I lost contact with but still always was very special for me took his own life. I was in disbelief that he did it before I had the chance to do so, I was kind of jealous that he had already succeeded and is in a better place now.
I hired a medium to talk to him because I wanted to talk to him so badly about things left unspoken. The medium knew some details which nobody else could know so it helped a little bit, knowing he’s fine now.
Since knowing the only person I’ve ever really connected with and who truly understoood me is gone forever and that I can never ever talk to him again makes my life even more lonely than it already was. I’m a loner and only have one single friend which I meet from time to time.
I was feeling lost last year and I was happy to leave 2017 behind me, which seemed one of the worst years for me ever. I lost my job, somebody played me really badly and broke my heart (again, how often can a heart be broken until it finally stops beating).
I met somebody at the beginning of January
I’m in Europe (Austria) and he was from the USA. We hit it off pretty well and I thought there’s finally somebody who cares for me and really wants me in my life. We ended up taking vacation and I bought a ticket to come and see him. We had some misunderstandings from time to time but truly seemed pretty good.
One day out of no reason he stopped answering me. I panicked because of my anxiety that everything I’ve ever loved died, I messaged him, called him, emailed him, pleaded him to just tell me it’s over so I can stop worrying that something happend to him.
Nothing for two days. I had a breakdown and just cried and cried... I saw him online on WhatsApp and tried to video call him, it said he’s video calling with somebody else right now.
He ignored all of my messsges even I know he did see them.
He emailed me his phone was broke (after two days) and that he loves me.
I blocked him and never talked to him again.
I just don’t get it, people tend to say I’m a intelligent person, maybe I’m naive, maybe I have a too big heart and maybe I just wanted to think that after 32 years of being succsessless in everything I’ve ever did, specially with choosing my partners, that I finally arrived somewhere.
I hardly connect with people. He was the second person in my life I did.
I feel like I’m never going to find somebody who loves me for me, not my looks, but my soul.
I feel bad because there is so much suffering on this planet, so many ppl who are sick but want to live but die. Why can’t I die instead of them? And they l
Last year I found out that somebody I lost contact with but still always was very special for me took his own life. I was in disbelief that he did it before I had the chance to do so, I was kind of jealous that he had already succeeded and is in a better place now.
I hired a medium to talk to him because I wanted to talk to him so badly about things left unspoken. The medium knew some details which nobody else could know so it helped a little bit, knowing he’s fine now.
Since knowing the only person I’ve ever really connected with and who truly understoood me is gone forever and that I can never ever talk to him again makes my life even more lonely than it already was. I’m a loner and only have one single friend which I meet from time to time.
I was feeling lost last year and I was happy to leave 2017 behind me, which seemed one of the worst years for me ever. I lost my job, somebody played me really badly and broke my heart (again, how often can a heart be broken until it finally stops beating).
I met somebody at the beginning of January
I’m in Europe (Austria) and he was from the USA. We hit it off pretty well and I thought there’s finally somebody who cares for me and really wants me in my life. We ended up taking vacation and I bought a ticket to come and see him. We had some misunderstandings from time to time but truly seemed pretty good.
One day out of no reason he stopped answering me. I panicked because of my anxiety that everything I’ve ever loved died, I messaged him, called him, emailed him, pleaded him to just tell me it’s over so I can stop worrying that something happend to him.
Nothing for two days. I had a breakdown and just cried and cried... I saw him online on WhatsApp and tried to video call him, it said he’s video calling with somebody else right now.
He ignored all of my messsges even I know he did see them.
He emailed me his phone was broke (after two days) and that he loves me.
I blocked him and never talked to him again.
I just don’t get it, people tend to say I’m a intelligent person, maybe I’m naive, maybe I have a too big heart and maybe I just wanted to think that after 32 years of being succsessless in everything I’ve ever did, specially with choosing my partners, that I finally arrived somewhere.
I hardly connect with people. He was the second person in my life I did.
I feel like I’m never going to find somebody who loves me for me, not my looks, but my soul.
I feel bad because there is so much suffering on this planet, so many ppl who are sick but want to live but die. Why can’t I die instead of them? And they l