I finally got SSI, and a couple months later I lose it. Now I'm working a minimum wage work study job to pay bills (since I don't have a car), for acne medication, and save up for a car. I'm guessing I'll just have to pay off my doctor bills first. Then I can buy a car. Finally, I can start up therapy again. I'll have therapy by the end of next year at this rate. So, I've decided I'll save up the money for a car and use it to move to the Netherlands or Belgium. I'm researching their legal euthanasia for people in mental distress. Seems like the only way out of this mess.