I decided to tell a family member I didn't want to stay with her anymore at her house. It started when Her boyfriend son was busted with drugs a large amount. And my cousin and her boyfriend are the biggest drug dealers in the south part of the state. When the guy got busted she freaked out and started having me hide shit off of her property and take stuff to my house. Well a week goes by and shits just getting more crazy. So I grow a pair and tell her I didnt want to stay with her at her house. And I want the stuff out of my house. she flipped the fuck out, I knew she was going to go all drama on me but this was a whole new level I didn't expect. They threatened my life. I live in a small town. My thoughts are should I move? Should I accept that I know I don't value my life and put up a front and act normal like their not affecting my life. Do I kill myself so they don't get the pleasure of doing it. I have a lot of family here my whole dads side. And she said never to contact any of them not even my dad. If you count the members of my family and her boyfriend family that's 15 people that I don't want to run into. im paranoid, havnt slept much. I set an alarm to wake up every 15 minutes incase I do fall asleep. I know their not going to dot he dirty job themselves so everyone is a suspect to me. I havnt called my friends for fear they will pay or threaten them for information or whatever. I tild my therapist that im afraid to talk to her cause they will pay or threaten he to talk. Her boyfriend is part of the cartel. he pais a cop here in this town for information. Im fucked. Its been 5 days since this went down. Nothing has happened but their going to wait till I let my guard down. I do have on my side that I know how to look and watch for things. That I learned from them. My cousin and I use to be so close until she got with this guy. I hope she remembers how I was there for her when he <mod edit - detail> and I was there to hold her for days instead she tells me to always remember how I got myself in this position of losing all of the family I had. she d osnt know that I wrote letters and put them all over my house and truck if something does happen to me the cops will know that they are the only people that have threatened my life. I feel so sorry for the kids who still live in the home with her. Its sad they are 10 and 8 and they know what heroin, meth and pot are. They get paid in the summer to trim pot. Im going to miss them. I know when they get older they will have free will to be able to talk to me. I treated them better then she did. I played games with them I helped then with their homework. I didn't call call them asshole stupid fuck prices of shot. The 10 year old would say <mod edit - methods> and she would say good your a shitty son. he's 10! I had my dad call last night leaving a message saying he was going to kill himself. And there was nothing I could do about it. my emotions are over the place. But I accept theres a hit on my head and almost have a peace feeling over my body idk.