My home life really isn’t going well and I’m really unhappy. I no longer love my wife and there is nothing I could do to change that … I know … I tried. Problem is I have 2 kids with her. Now Option 1: I leave her, totally crush her, my kids. rip 40% of their stuff away (so I can remake my life even if I paid for 100% of it) Option 2: Kill my self, totally crush her, my kids. They keep everything + insurance. Option 3: stay, be miserable, totally unhappy and keep feeling dead inside. For the life of me although I know leaving her is the only thing that will solve our problems I just can’t do it. I’ve known for the last 3 years that I was no longer happy. I had decided to stay for the kids but now my depression is coming back on full force. I have learned that my suicidal thoughts always come back when I envisage leaving her and the kids, and I always decide to stay because it’s a LOT less complicated. I know it’s the only way I will ever regain control of my life, I know it’s what I need to do, but I simply cant get around to do it … killing my self seems so much easier. I know no one here can give me any good advice. Hell even my doctors told me to leave her and I can’t get around to it (not because I still love her but because it is so much trouble) Unfortunately I have 0 friends I could talk to, I can’t talk about this to my coworkers, I can’t talk about this to my parents for obvious reasons and I can’t talk to her … unless I want to fight and have her scream at me for a few hrs. I’m lost and let’s just say I’m seriously contemplating suicide … again I can’t handle life and hardship anymore I just want to die.