I could really do with some advice because im not sure how much more of this I can take. To cut a very long story short, I suffer from depression and social phobia. For along time now I've gradually gone down hill and reaching rock bottom. I just dont know where to turn or what do to anymore. Ive been in and out of therpist & councillors for awhile now and thought I was gradually getting better but the past 5 months or so have been hell, there just feels like theres been a shift, I no longer feel/relate/ or even remember what it was like before I went down hill. I have so many dark thoughts on a regular basis and have had many like them before but its strange, before there was a greater uncertainty whether I would actually commit suicide but now............. it just seems more real, more of an option or necessicity. My best friend who has simular issues is getting help for her problems and im so frightened to even turn to her for help in fear of bringing her down, I dont want to hinder her in anyway to overcome her problems. And ive put my parents through so much worry and heart ache over the years with my depression and social phobia I cant put them through it again. How can I get help without causing worry to my best friend and parents?