Deep down inside there is a teeny part of you that wants to fight on. It's the part that said help at the end of your first post. Look inside and find that flicker. Use it as your strength to hold on!! Make it grow sis. As hard as it is, shut out everything else, even if for only an hour, give the flicker a chance to grab on and help pull you through this. PM some of the friends you have here, go to chat, anything to try and forget the hurt for a moment.