Lost

[Debs]

I just lost my Mum.

I lived with her for 3 1/2 years.

In the last year I cared for her whilst she had pancreatic cancer.

She died on 30 Dec.

In the 2 months leading to her death I did the hands on care and it was hell.

I miss her terribly - I can't see any reason to go on.

I have drugs

< Mod edit Hazel: Method >

I think this should be enough

 

[physician]

Hey, wait a bit...
many ppl had passed the way you passed,
and I personally know how does it feel to loose a mother, especially cancer...

Reconsider, the solution is never a suicide, many times it is unsuccessful and can cause damages which may last for lifetime.

 

[Dave_N]

Hi Debs and welcome to SF. :welcome: I'm sorry that your mom has just passed away. I don't think your mom would want you to end your life after trying so hard to take care of her while she was alive. I think your mom would want you to enjoy your life a little. I know that's hard after losing a loved one. Please don't give up hun. :hug:

 

[Hazel]

Hello Debs and welcome to Sf, I'm very sorry to hear about the death of your mum.
You were obviously very good to her and I hope you find some solace in knowing you that you took good care of her.
It takes a long time to come to terms with the death of a loved one, please seek support here to help you resist the urge to take the drugs (I had to edit out the names and amounts)
Then perhaps you might consider bereavement counselling?
For now stay and talk to us.

Hazel :hug:

 

[Speck]

Hi deb,
I'm sorry about the loss of your mum, i know it hurts when you loose someone your close to and spent time caring for leaves a big gap.

thinking of you x

 

[Petal]

Hi Debs.

Welcome to sf.

I'm so sorry for your loss :sad:

I lost my dad last year to cancer too so I can relate to how you are feeling :hug: I'm here if you need to talk.

Thinking of you,Lynn.

 

[soliloquise]

very sorry for your loss you will find others here in a similar boat and i hope by talking here you can work thorugh the urge to commit.
your mum would want you to be happy... you need to grieve. i am so sorry

 

[Stranger1]

Hello Debs,
I am sorry for your loss. I know sometimes when you are taking care of someone you tend to forget to look out for yourself. It sounds like your focus was all on your mom and didn't get a chance to prepare for her passing.
I am facing the loss of my parents. We had to put them in an ALF because we just couldn't give them the care they need. I don't think my dad will last much longer, and we never got along until a year ago when we sat down and talked from the heart to each other. So I now let him and mom know how much I love them.
Maybe visiting her grave sight and sitting down and just talking to her will get some of those feelings out so they aren't stagnating inside of you. I am sure she knew how much you loved her and she wouldn't want you to harm yourself. Keep posting so we know how you are doing Or PM some of us if you want to talk privately.Take Care!!~Joseph~

 

[Debs]

Well it's just over 5 weeks now.

I went away to the USA to stay with friends.

I never cried there - weird but just being with friends helped.


Now I am on my own and the loneliness is too much to bear.

I can't do this anymore, it's just so pointless.

My first post said it all - I never wanted pain

 

[Epical Taylz]

:hug: welcome to sf hunny.
maybe you should talk to your friends in the USA and ask
them if they could watch over you for a little while.
I know that being older and asking of that it a little bit
embarassing, but they should be able to understand :hug: