I've never had what I considered a drinking problem. I mean I've gone through phases where perhaps I drank more than the average person, but whatever. I have been treated for "alcohol abuse" once, but it wasn't anything major. So recently I just got a drunk driving. I rarely ever drink and drive... I mean rarely. It was a freak thing and I wasn't that much over the legal limit. I was depressed before this happened, but now I'm completely falling apart. The worst thing is I want to drink more than ever. Is that totally awful? I would think something like a drunk driving would make someone want to drink less, but it is quite the opposite for me. I am just so torn up inside and scared that it is the only thing that makes me feel completely numb. I feel like my drinking is going to spiral drastically out of control... but as long as I don't drive(which I don't plan on) I'm not causing anyone else any harm. I guess I don't really have a point, I just needed to justify it to myself.